Another one for me.
But then which one of me?
I’m not sure; the lines have become blurred.
Journey into integration and self discovery?
Or gradual descent into abhorred normalcy?
Enjoy.
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You need to find me.
This mind is bursting at the seams with conversations unhad, fights unfought, and lies untold. Why do you tarry so? Don’t you think of me too? Do you not miss me at nights? Or do you already tell someone else the insignificant parts about your day? Do you allow her to hold you and cradle your head in her bosom?
Tell me, do you?
She doesn’t bother me though. She’s not the one and you know it. She’s everything you thought you wanted but you still balk inwardly when she talks future. You can’t picture having our children with her. Or perhaps you do see the picture but there’s something wrong with it and you can’t put your finger on it.
That’s because you need to put your fingers on me.
These breasts are full, waiting. These arms ache from the emptiness. See how these lips are permanently pursed? They have become stiff from needing to be kneaded. This skin tingles just at the thought of you. Not when he dares to touch. Or when the other one thinks his words are so hot. No, not any of them. Just you.
Only you.
I’m done with all of them. I can’t keep it up anymore. I’m tired. Of the ones who have your look and not your heart. Of the ones who have your mind but not your smile. Of the ones who are you but are not mine. Mine. My own. Nkem. Why do you tarry so? Surely you’re not in collusion with the universe to punish me?
It was never my intent.
Yes there is a jar that bears my name. A porcelain jar. I did not ask for it but I understand that I must be punished for its contents. But isn’t my punishment a bit severe considering that I mostly didn’t ask for those hearts? This ache underneath the ice façade…this hollow…surely it’s enough?
Enough.
Dude. You need to find me already.
Konji in the system abi ???????
Don’t worry it is well
Buh I lik the depth tho. Nyc 1
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Lol, leave this place now!
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I feel like u spoke wiv my voice. :( These words I’m tired of whispering 2 myself, night after cold night; day after boring day. The other day I told a friend when ‘he’ finally shows up i’km probli gonna punch him in the gonads right after I’ve sucked his face off wivv the KissThat’llLast4eva. “Dude, u need 2 find me already.” :(
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I lol-ed at “punch him in the gonads”
*hug*
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Lol. We can agree that after all this time tho he’d deserve it abi?
*hugs*
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Totally.
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Babe, this is my exact state of mind. U knw d point where u ask: #DearFutureHusbandiThinkYouAreMadAbiYouWantMeToDateAllTheBoysBeforeYouCome :|
The wait haf taya me!
Luv d way u put it in2 words. Classic.
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Lol!
Thank you :)
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OluwaJezuz!
All my gehs are going with the strawberry these days. It’s not safe anymore in these word-smithing boroughs. I should wise up and latch up to one of ’em strawberry swings for my very own taste of the sugarcane.
What is wrong with all of you?!
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AfroMan.
I would ask you to be normal and drop a regular comment…but I don’t want you to be.
:)
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Ooooh. Aaaah. Ooooh. Aaah.
I hope that was coherent. ;)
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Aaaah.
Ooooh.
Very coherent ma’am, thanks :D
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“These breasts are full, waiting. These arms ache from the emptiness…” That did it for me! The hammer that struck! Oh, I am coming already!
I like this writer for one particular reason: Miserly with her words. Like they are marbles, rare marbles. Simple, but every character has to mean something.
I’d stop now, for I have to read it over and over again.
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Coming where oh?! Lol!
High praise Evi, thank you :)
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“These breasts are full, waiting” <- this line though! Dear secret crush, MY BREASTS ARE WAITING O! Ehen. -.-
Love your writing style! (Y)
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Weirdoo’s secret crush, have you heard? Lol…
Thank you :)
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The path your posts has taken lately. . .
I like. .
A bit off. .unique. .
But very deep
This one. .more story. .very nice!
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Thank you ma’am. I’m glad you like :)
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I like this. Like the way the language in the last line seems at odds with the rest of the piece but still works perfectly. Very nicely done Dania.
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Thank you Uche. Or Anne. UcheAnne :D
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!!!!!!!!!!
You wrote this piece for me, atink?
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Yes, of course I did :)
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I can’t begin to tell how much I like this piece.
This is brilliant. This is beautiful.
And from one of my favourite / most talented authors.
May you find, Dania darling; if only because you have set your heart steadfast to wait. May he find you quickly lest he risk a kick in the groin.
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Hahahaha!
Shhhhh…not too loudly, we don’t want to scare him off. Hey, if you’re seeing this, I won’t kick too hard. I promise.
Liberal with your praise as always dear Kola.
Thank you :)
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But really o. It is as though u wrote dis thing 4me. My thoughts exactly, dis is exactly how I feel now…right dis moment!
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We are many. We are legion! Lol…
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serious legion……lol
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*says deep shit and moonwalks off*
*moonwalks back on*
*catches sub*
I’m not coming. Gimme a couple of years. 3-|
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Secret crush?
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Diary of a conceited woman. She probably thinks she’s all that and more. Hopefully she wakes up and smells the coffee.
There’s a way you write. I’m still trying to get my head around it.
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Lol, trust you to see it from that angle.
I’m gonna go right ahead and take the second part as a compliment. So thank you PreyingMantis :)
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It is a compliment.
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*sigh*…. Just… *sigh*
And then there’s the one’s that are with someone hoping its him…never knowing, doubting the doubts and….
*sigh*
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“…doubting the doubts…”
*sigh*
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Resonance.
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:)
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im so in love with this,….had to purrit on facebook too sef….
Dania…..u r d bestest!!
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I am? *blushing furiously*
Thank you :)
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i like. this is for me right? No?
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Yes oh, its for all of us.
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Hehehehe! The constant words pouring out from aging lips around….*lifts beats by idire earphones*
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Aging??? (>_<)
:D
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Seeing as I got this link in my DM. I know its real.
Don’t tell me you got it in yours too.
Love you Dania..and this..THIS..THIS IS.
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Loool! Yes it is real :|
Thank you Kev.
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Konji is a damn bastars!!! Another way it’s said
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*sighs* so tired of the frogs mehn, when shall my prince get here.
tired of the merry go round………..i need a permanent stop already,
but good things come to those that errrmmmmm wait……..
waiting patiently :D
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my mind is bursting at the seams with conversations unhad, fights unfought, even lies untold…or do you already tell someone else the insignificant parts about your day?……….you so beautifully described the way i feel with those lines of yours.. you are a beautiful writer Dania. i “gbadun” you plenty.
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Hi Dania…
I’m here…
…For Neyah. Pls, step aside…
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“That’s because you need to put your fingers on me.
These breasts are full, waiting.” My jaw dropped. Lovely!
This was(is?) me. *sigh*
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short of words!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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