I love you Lord
You make me strong
I’m so grateful for your love
More than anything in my life, I’m grateful for our relationship
Just knowing that there’s that safe place that’s always got me
That I can crawl into your lap even when I don’t understand
That you find ways to make every hurt and pain go away
And even when I don’t hear you, I feel you
Even when I don’t get it, I know you’re working something
I love how nothing I am; nothing I do surprises you
You know me; my every flaw, my every mistake
You know of each stumble before I make it,
And so you planned my life around each fall
Planned lessons and growth
Made provision for healing
Even when I tumbled into depths I didn’t know possible
Started having thoughts I never in a thousand years dreamed I could have because I thought I was so strong
Even when I fell into that pit,
You weren’t surprised, you weren’t appalled;
You were there, waiting, to catch me and bear me up in your arms.
But not before you straightened me out
The fall left me broken and covered in mud
So first you straightened out the broken bones
And then held me close in your arms while I screamed and cried from healing pains
Then like a mother cat with her young, you licked me tenderly till I was all clean;
Bright and shiny like a newly polished diamond
Now I rest in your arms as you lift me out
I have no idea where we’re going
And that’s okay
As long as you’re taking me there
I know it will be beautiful
So I just rest
I’m grateful the most for this rest; this rest in your arms
I never want to be any place else
I never want to forget
Help me to never forget
I have come to realise my own humanity
I can do nothing; be nothing without you
I can’t even love you without your help
My heart is overwhelmed by you and your love and your everything
How you never lie
How you’re constantly faithful
And good to me
I’ve done nothing to deserve this
That’s another thing you did in the pit
Made me see why I stumbled and fell
My head was held high so I couldn’t see with my eyes the stones in my path;
My inner eyes were focused on myself alone so I couldn’t see
But you showed me my blindness, and healed me of it
Like the blind man in the Bible, you used the mud in the pit to cleanse my eyes
And so every day I see more clearly
I’ve done nothing to deserve you in my life
Everytime I cried out that the pain was too much
You rubbed in some salve to soothe me while I healed
How can you be so strong and yet so tender?
How can you fight off evil so fiercely and hold me so tenderly in those same arms?
How can you so easily plan the lives of over a billion people and still pick out an outfit for me to wear in the morning?
How can you be the Lion of the tribe of Judah, and still be Abba to a fledgling cub like me?
Abba. Daddy Dearest. Darling Daddy. Daddy Daddy.
Mary had perfume.
I have only the words. But even they are so inadequate.
I’m grateful for you. I’m so grateful for you.
It’s not nearly enough. But may it be pleasing.
I love you. You are the centre. You are my centre.
Today you are. Tomorrow, you are.